It didn´t start good. I wasn´t as prepared as I wanted to be.

As much as I love modeling, I started to feel more and more disappointed in myself this year. I wasn´t very satisfied with my work, I saw many mistakes in them. I gained weight and didn´t feel very good. Well, it wasn´t just because of that...
Some things in my life just went wrong. I didn´t feel like myself, instead of doing something practical or even something I liked to do, all I did was sit in front of a computer not doing anything, besides looking at silly videos and pictures, like trying to "brainwash" myself with stupid things instead of looking right at my problems.
Problems with (ex)boyfriend didn´t add to my well-being and starting to work at three-shift system again was even worse, both physically and psychically. It was all just plain wrong.

It´s time to change that, time to stop running away from problems and start to do something about them.
Now I have plans. So many of them and I am determined not to back off again and not to loose the goals from my sight.

It´s time to start anew with new motivations, new goals.

Next year is going to be different. Next year I´m going to do things differently, I´m going to learn more, try harder and try new things.
I´m going to show my old self what life is about.